It has been sort of an emotional week. The choking feeling comes & goes. Sometimes tears come & sometimes they don't. Someone on my MOA group posted asking how we have changed. I am trying to figure that out. I know I am different, but exactly how I can not figure out. I know I get pissed off pretty easy now, but not sure if that is because of this experience. I am also more laid back @ the same time. It is pretty confusing. I know I cusss more!! I still love helping Moms & babies, but I also have less tolerance for those that do not parent the way I do. This woman PISSED ME OFF TODAY! Actually two woman. Boy, I really could have gone off if I and wanted to. Now I wish I had. Next time I will.....hahahaha!
Amber had a nightmare this week & a burst of tears today. In her nightmare, I had died. I was in a coffin in the living room & the flowers were floating. Poor Baby. Both my babies are having many thoughts of death. She could not go back to sleep alone after that. It was a restless night that is for sure, she is not as small as she used to be.
Tomorrow we go to Disneyland. That is one thing that has changed, before I would have NEVER let my kids play hooky to go to an amusement park. Now I think life is too short. Matt is off, so lets go. So we are. Not that we are going to make a habit of it, but hell why not? So after Austin's physical in the morning, we are off. Taking my knitting of course.