For those that still read this blog, I am feeling pretty good these days, hence the lack of blogging. When I feel good, I do not write that much. However, I thought I would share a few things.

Yes, I am feeling good. I think I have found some peace. I am not really sure when that came to be. Was it getting more sleep with the sleeping pills I was perscribed? (Past tense as they are now gone.) Was it going to see Dr.V & finding confidence in myself that I really did not kill my daughter? (Will that ever go away completly, no, but I do feel better.) Perhaps it was time. That cliche I HATED hearing in the beginning, it takes time. Well, it was true. Time has passed. I feel better. It does not sting as hard anymore. Am I back to normal? No, I will never be that person. As someone said to me, I will become a new person with tiny pieces of the old person still there.
I do still have my moments of grief. Yesterday I had a couple of hours of intense grief. I was sobbing agian. It was deeper, but short lived. I asked for forgivness & it was given & I feel better.

Our lives are continuing. My children are growing & thriving. They are happy. Matt is seeing happiness. & I am joining them. I am so glad.

WE LOVE & MISS YOU ALEXA ROSE. Always & forever my baby girl.

(Oh, I saw a baby today, that if Alexa had lived they would be the same age. That baby was sitting up & so happy. It amazed me to see in her how much my baby would have changed. But since she is gone, she will forever be my baby!!! I find peace in that. I will always have a baby girl, forever. Sigh.)